tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-82290647482673585802024-03-13T08:41:56.512-07:00hitherto & henceforthUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger127125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8229064748267358580.post-44924469308445421762012-06-11T10:02:00.000-07:002012-06-11T10:02:00.177-07:00Waiting for Sunrise by Eva Marie Everson (Book Review)<a href="http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/12970266-waiting-for-sunrise" style="float: left; padding-right: 20px;"><img alt="Waiting for Sunrise: A Cedar Key Novel" border="0" src="http://photo.goodreads.com/books/1327943941m/12970266.jpg" /></a><a href="http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/12970266-waiting-for-sunrise">Waiting for Sunrise: A Cedar Key Novel</a> by <a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/85688.Eva_Marie_Everson">Eva Marie Everson</a><br />
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I've been waiting for this book to release ever since I finished Everson's Chasing Sunsets. I first got hooked on Everson's writing when I read This Fine Life.<br />
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Everson tackles some very tough issues in this novel without making it a total downer. Instead of the romanticized life, her characters are authentic, believable and easy to relate to...the way every character should be, right? Throughout this novel characters deal with the fallout of abusive childhoods and mental illness as well.<br />
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In this novel Everson utilizes flashbacks to keep the plot moving as well as keeping it interesting. I love that Everson excels at writing about ordinary people doing ordinary things with the same problems that many people deal with, but don't talk about.<br />
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In an age where many Christian authors are not talking about the hard subjects, it's encouraging to read work from an author who broaches such topics with class and grace while maintaining the integrity of the storyline.<br />
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While this is the "second" book in the Cedar Key Novels it can by all means be read alone, though if you haven't read Chasing Sunsets yet, I propose it be your next read!<br />
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I received a copy of this title for review purposes from Revell Publishing a division of Baker Publishing Group. All opinions are my own.
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At first glance these statements don't seem all that different. Take a moment, however and really look at them. Be <b>the </b>best vs. be <b>your </b>best. <br />
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I've always wanted to excel; <a href="http://hithertoandhenceforth.blogspot.com/2012/05/competitive.html">to be the best</a>. Whether it was getting the best grades, running the fastest, or lasting the longest, I wanted to be it. That's just the way it was, but as I found out, you can never be the best at everything and most times there will be someone better than you. Life is too short to master everything. <br />
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I grew up hiking with my dad. Ever since I was little, I wanted to hike the 46 high peaks in NY state to become a member of the somewhat elite, 46-er club. I'm kind of an all-or-nothing gal, so if I was going to hike it meant that I wanted to be the best hiker ever and hike not only the forty-six high peaks, but also Rainier, Washington and someday Everest. <br />
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What began as friendly family time hikes turned into my own personal need to climb Everest? Where did that come from? Like I said, I'm competitive. Doing well isn't enough, I have to perform the best. <br />
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There is a difference between being "the best" and "your best". I'm not called to be the best in everything I do; I'm called to perform at MY best. In hiking, my personal best might be to finish just one more hike--not necessarily to climb Everest. Actually, I can tell you right now I am not called to climb Everest. No really. Won't happen. In my mothering I am called to be the best mother I can be, but MY best mothering isn't supposed to look like your best mothering. Doing my best might consist of taking all the kids out for McDonald's once a week so I can maintain my sanity while your best mothering might be never allowing your children to eat McDonald's. <br />
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The past few weeks have been crazy busy!! In the same way that things are ending for you, many of our Bible studies, MOPS groups, and other extracurricular activities are winding down. Part of me is happy while the other part is super sad because I won't be seeing my friends as often. Here's a recap of our busy week.....<br />
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<center style="text-align: center;"><br /></center><center style="text-align: left;"><br /></center><center style="text-align: left;">My labels are long-stuck. I've written them across myself with ink no one else can see. Some of them are easily discerned. Labels like <i>mother</i> are easily understood, especially when you see me out and about with my four hooligans. Unless, you think I'm the babysitter, which according to recent comments, many people think I am. </center><center style="text-align: left;"><br /></center><center style="text-align: left;">I'm alive so I must be someone's daughter, right? Someone must have borne me. She did and for her I am forever grateful. </center><center style="text-align: left;"><br /></center><center style="text-align: left;">I have a brother, so that makes me a sister. I have friends and so I am labeled a friend. </center><center style="text-align: left;"><br /></center><center style="text-align: left;">But what about the labels of things I no longer am? Throughout the past year I have been scrubbing away at a label and it's weird now that it's finally gone. The seemingly permanent marker has been replaced by a shadow, a circle of un-tanned skin where a ring used to sit....</center><center style="text-align: left;">it's a label, and it's gone. </center><center style="text-align: left;"><br /></center><center style="text-align: left;">But there's one label that's indelible. It's not tanned or white. It's not removable, shake-able, or erasable, and that's the label that says I'm His. </center><center style="text-align: left;"><br /></center><center style="text-align: left;">And no piece of paper can take that away.</center><center style="text-align: left;"> </center><center><a href="http://thegypsymama.com/category/five-minute-friday/"><img src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/_lCeOMfY0_fQ/TWly2m-jN_I/AAAAAAAAFEY/k8HJ__cvkws/s200/5%20minute%20friday.jpg" /></a></center>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8229064748267358580.post-25688079709145452002012-05-10T18:40:00.000-07:002012-05-10T18:40:08.684-07:00And This Brings You To Today...Every pregnancy I have gone into labor earlier and earlier. It's never been early enough to alarm anyone, but I knew with Isabella that I probably wouldn't make it past 38 weeks and that was just fine with me. The night before I went into labor was the night of the <a href="http://hithertoandhenceforth.blogspot.com/2012/02/for-love-of-cell-phone.html">septic tank debacle </a>so after that ordeal my labor seemed pretty uneventful...we got to the hospital, yes, I' was really in labor, and then we just sat around, waiting for the baby to make her entrance. Finally at five thirty PM on February 8, Isabella was born. <div>
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I've always had a competitive streak a mile long. Whether it was in sports or academics I wanted to be the best. The only exception was when it came to keeping my room clean...then I could not have cared less about who was better at that. The same was true when I went to college and when I planned my career. I've always wanted to perform well. <br />
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I went from being a professional interpreter to a full-time stay at home pretty much overnight. Our hopes were that the damage from the incorrect shot would indeed heal with time. It did heal a bit, but not enough to allow me to interpret professionally. <br />
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Going from working outside the home part-time to full-time stay at home mom was crazy. Looking back I'm so thankful I was able to come home with my kids. It took me a good six months to get used to that change. That might seem like a lot of time, but also during that time, around the end of June we found out we were expecting baby number four which rocked.our.world. And not in the "this is totally planned" sort of way. If you've been keeping track, ALL of our babies were a surprise. Well, with Roman we weren't NOT trying, but you get the picture. Planning wasn't really our strong point when it came to babies. <br />
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Isabella's pregnancy was a struggle to put it mildly. After only knowing I was pregnant for a few weeks, I had a sub-chorionic hemorrhage which caused us to almost lose Bella. Isabella, however, kept my friends praying and me on pins and needles. For the first twenty weeks anytime I had an ultrasound, played too roughly with the kids, or for any other reason I would start to miscarry again and have to take it easy. It stunk to say the least. There's a lot more I have to say on that subject so I'll save it for another post.<br />
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I'll leave you here, with me pregnant and waiting for the arrival of baby number 4 in less than 6 years. Holy Hannah, I can't believe I just wrote that!<br />
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My rating: <a href="http://www.goodreads.com/review/show/326059823">5 of 5 stars</a><br />
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Are you teetering on the edge, staring over the precipice? Not sure if you should take the plunge? Who knew that the stringing together of the letters W.R.I.T.E.R. would be such a a difficult label with which to identify?<br />
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When people asked what I did I would reply with, "Sign language interpreter," or "blogger" or "stay at home mom." Never did I say what I really was, an alien. No, just kidding. A writer. That's what I am--a writer. Jeff's declaration that the day you become a writer is the day you DECIDE to become a writer is a breath of fresh air.<br />
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Every team, including Team Kristina, the Writer needs a cheerleader. Likewise, team Kristina, the Writer, also needs a good motivator (aka, kick in the pants). Jeff has managed to be combine the roles of team of the cheer squad as well as chief and master fire-lighter under the rears of his readers magnificently in his most recent work, You Are A Writer.<br />
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There's a platform, and branding, and holy cow I have five ideas started and not one near completion. On top of that I don't even tweet, twit, twitter, chirp, whatever they call that! Can you sense the hyperventilation setting in?<br />
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Slow down, or as my mom used to say, "Hold your horses!" Take a deep breath and remind yourself that THIS is why you bought the book--because Jeff carefully and concisely touches on all of these subjects and delves deeply into many of them. Your mission, should you choose to accept it is to keep turning the pages. <br />
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Five stars. Count 'em. One, two, three, four, five. That's the rating I gave this book for the following reasons. First of all, it was brimming with great content. With informative chapters like, Writers are Born, Not Made, Establishing A Brand, and Before Your First Book, rest assured that the content of this book is invaluable. Well-organized and easy to read are two other descriptors that could be used for this book. As a mom of young kids my reading time is short and oft interrupted. You can very easily put this book down in the middle of a chapter to go clean up the loaf of bread that your kids tore into pieces in the living room (true story) and come back to pick up right where you left off. I have to admit though, that I toyed with the idea of letting the loaf of bread stay right where it was because I did not want to put this book down.<br />
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Secondly, this book is worth it just for the advice on branding and building a platform. Not really a writer, but still looking to build a brand? Three words. Buy. The. Book. I'm in the midst of a branding pickle myself, so that chapter was especially enlightening.<br />
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Altogether, this book is informative and inspiring. When I finished reading it I wanted to sit down with my computer and write. Forever. I also felt much more prepared to handle the media and marketing side that comes with being a writer. <br />
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Buy the book, you won't be disappointed. Ka-chow! (Is it evident we watch way too much Pixar around here?)<br />
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Many thanks to <a href="http://www.twitter.com/jeffgoins">Jeff Goins</a>, who provided a copy of this title in exchange for my honest review. You can read more of Jeff's writing at his <a href="http://www.goinswriter.com/">blog</a> or find out more about his book <a href="http://www.youareawriter.com/">here</a>.<br />
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I typed in the correct numbers on the computer and hesitantly clicked the "Calculate" button. No, I wasn't figuring out the amortization rates for my mortgage, nor my monthly budget. Nope. As I watched the little hourglass I held my breath until the dates when our third child would be born popped onto the screen. Third week of July, 2009. Since God and I had made a deal that I would not carry much past 38 weeks (just kidding) that put the due date somewhere around July 4th. <i>How cool would that be?</i> I thought to myself. As a self-proclaimed history nut, especially American history, there really wouldn't be a better day on which to be born. </div>
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What exactly, may I ask, does a newborn do? I mean, what fills their day? If you answered anything reminiscent of eat, sleep, and poop, then you, my friend are a smart person. Unfortunately, our little man, Roman wasn't doing two of those three things. He was sleeping ALL.THE.TIME, but he wasn't pooping and he wasn't eating. <br />
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I started freaking out a little bit. The time to take my little man home was quickly approaching and meanwhile he wasn't eating. Every couple hours he would be roused from his slumber by vomiting. Now, I know what normal I-was-just-recently-inside-the-womb gunk looks like and this was not it. This was bright, yellow bile. One more hilarious encounters was with one of his nurses. I showed her one of his spit up rags and said something along the lines of, "See, this isn't breast milk and it's not amniotic fluid. Something's wrong." <br />
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She looked at me with that expression that dripped condescension and said, "Oh no, honey, that's just colostrum." <br />
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"Unless y'all are breastfeeding my baby in the hallway, it isn't colostrum because he hasn't eaten in two days, so I think you have no clue what you are talking about. I want to see Cheri." Cheri was my doctor.<br />
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Basically, Cheri came in later that day to discharge us and instead Roman went through a barium swallow (it's torture watching your baby on an x-ray table at two days old screaming and puking and knowing you can't step in. torture.) and thankfully a very good friend who was also our nurse had the wherewithal to stop the test because it wasn't working and wheel all of us, baby included, back to our room. Within ten minutes Roman had an IV and I was on the phone with people telling them that he was being shipped to Crouse NICU (about 30 minutes away) and that he would have surgery. We were braced for surgery, a colostomy bag, the entirety of his intestines being removed, and no contact sports ever. At least that's what we were told. Roman had a bowel obstruction that filled his entire large intestine. I was bawling and frankly, overwhelmed. The transport team came, suited him up in his transport incubator and drove off with him. Paul and I followed a few minutes later. <br />
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My memories of this experience are simultaneously sharp and hazy. I remember the moment they told me about surgery vividly, but the moments of saying goodbye before he left on the ambulance are fuzzy. I remember the first cheeseburger and Coke I had as we waited for the specialists to see him so we could go back upstairs and touch him again. It was odd going from this baby as a part of me, to picking him up whenever I pleased, to having to ask permission to even touch him in the NICU. Surreal cannot even begin to describe it. I walked into our house at the time and had no idea what to do with myself because you're not supposed to leave your baby at the hospital...you're supposed to bring them home with you.<br />
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We don't have many pictures from this time, but here are a few of my little man in the NICU. This is after he had been there for a week so he was unhooked from most of his monitors and was wearing "big boy" clothes which really means, he didn't have to be naked anymore.<br />
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I love this idea. It's not meant to replace thoughtful time in Bible study, but you know those days where you have one or two sick with the stomach bug and you can't even take a breath? Carey's devotionals are perfect for that because they are just enough to get you through until the next time you can take a breather. </div>
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<b><i>"When I became a mom I lost my God time," says Carey Bailey.</i></b> "I couldn't figure out how to fit it in, since everything but that time was a priority. So I made note cards that I set around my house with scriptures written on them. Even when my arms were too full of babies, laundry, and diapers to pick up a Bible, I could easily read God's words of encouragement that I was starving for"<br />
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I received a complimentary copy of Cravings for review purposes. All opinions expressed are mine and mine alone.</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8229064748267358580.post-85453416416294455812012-04-30T06:42:00.002-07:002012-04-30T06:42:50.824-07:00The Baroness {book review}<a href="http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/13091264-baroness" style="float: left; padding-right: 20px;"><img alt="Baroness" border="0" src="http://photo.goodreads.com/books/1328024571m/13091264.jpg" /></a><a href="http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/13091264-baroness">Baroness</a> by <a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/54106.Susan_May_Warren">Susan May Warren</a><br />
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Roaring twenties, Paris, girls, glitz, boys, and longing--throw them all together and you have a marvelous plot brewing that just begs to be written out in a novel. Susan May Warren did just that in her novel The Baroness. The Baroness is book two in a trilogy, the first being The Heiress. I did not read the first book in this series and I was a bit worried about whether or not I would be able to follow it or if I would be missing details pertinent to this story. Thankfully, my anxiety was completely unnecessary as Ms. Warren masterfully wove details from The Heiress into this novel. She tucked enough clues into the Baroness to not only give me all the details I needed, but also I want to go back and read The Heiress! <br />
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Many times in life we find ourselves wondering when enough is enough-how many times can bad things happen to the same family. I'm sure Lilly and Rosie, the main characters in The Baroness ask themselves this time and time again. This fast=paced, descriptive novel will hook you on the first page and reel you in all the way to the very last. <br />
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Ms. Warren is one of my favorite Christian authors. I've cut back quite a bit on the titles I review, but I review Ms. Warren's every chance I get and once again she did not disappoint. <br />
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The pregnancy with Ro progressed wonderfully. I was sicker than a dog and somewhat scared of the impending birth. The first time around I was up for anything. This time, I knew what I was in for and it freaked me out a bit. I was a pain in the rear end to my OB and had been dilated 4 cm for two weeks at that point. Finally she told me that if I came to the hospital with regular contractions and IF I had made progress, she would break my water. Dude, I left that appointment, went home and started cleaning. I slept that night, woke up the next morning and I have never walked so much in my entire life. I remember Paul calling me from work at about three and I was walking Zahara around the block in the stroller. He proceeded to chide me with stories of "giving birth on the sidewalk" to which I answered something reminiscent of "I have worked to darn hard to have these contractions stop now..." There may have been some stronger language involved, but I don't remember for sure.</div>
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Fast forward and after a great and "easy" birth, Roman Michael was born and we were all doing great. It was eleven o'clock at night when we had our first visitors and I charged my in-laws, aka the grandparents an admission fee of a slice of pizza to see their new grandson. I was starving. </div>
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and pictures! </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8229064748267358580.post-46020086303461370982012-04-25T20:10:00.002-07:002012-05-04T20:48:27.855-07:00In Which We Move Out<br />
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Here's parts <a href="http://hithertoandhenceforth.blogspot.com/2012/04/walking-down-path-part-1.html">one</a> and <a href="http://hithertoandhenceforth.blogspot.com/2012/04/paths-part-2-finally.html">two</a> if you want to be brought up to speed. :-)<br />
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After almost a year our little family forged our way to our new digs. It was a wee apartment and when I say wee, I mean probably four hundred square feet. It consisted of a living room, a kitchen with a counter at which to eat all of my marvelous (snort) cooking, a bathroom just large enough to turn around in, and two bedrooms. It was small, but it was our own place. I decided to go back to work as a sign language interpreter as well as attend classes at Rochester Institute of Technology two days a week in an attempt to finish my degree. You know, the one I was halfway towards getting when the stick turned pink? Yeah, that one.<br />
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My weekly schedule was as follows: M, W, F - Work as an interpreter in a classroom setting; T and TH drive two hours to Rochester, sit in class for four hours straight, do videotaping for homework in the lab and lastly drive two hours home to see the family.<br />
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About the same time we also started looking for a new apartment because the one we lived in had some issues, ie water and mildew issues from improper grading. With a crawling little one we decided to head out and moved into the apartment that would truly be what I deemed, My First Home. We loved the little apartment and I especially loved that we had a washer and dryer. The only thing better than having my own washer and dryer would be if I had someone to do that chore for me, but that wasn't happening anytime this century, so I settled for being ecstatic about not carting laundry to and from the laundromat. I was also super-excited that I had a washer and dryer when the stick turned pink for the second time. Yes, you read that right. Only 11 months after Zahara's birth I was pregnant with baby number two. <br />
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We celebrated Christmas with all the blinking lights and presents you can imagine. Zahara was the belle of every celebration as the first and only grandchild on both sides and the video of us telling my mother-in-law that she was going to be a grandmother again was epic. Epic. There was lots of screaming and she threw a doll that she was holding into the air, but the way we caught it on tape it looked like she kicked Zahara into the air. I would post it if I could, but you'll have to take my word for it.<br />
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Where did we <a href="http://hithertoandhenceforth.blogspot.com/2012/04/walking-down-path-part-1.html" target="_blank">leave off</a>?<br />
Oh yes, I was crying on my way to the honeymoon.<br />
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Fast forward to after the honeymoon and we house sat for a bit, then moved in with my dad because he was living all alone in a big house and needed the company.<br />
Translated: We were dirt poor and Paul would be out of work for an upcoming surgery and my dad happened to have an empty room.<br />
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Re-cap: Pregnant in April, Married in June, Paul's ACL reconstruction in October, Baby in December...say what?<br />
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You know how you hear wives complaining about what they're going to do after their husbands retire because they drive them nuts when they are home all day and not working? Yep, four months into our marriage we were dealing with retirement type issues. I do have some fond memories, though of Paul on painkillers because he talks in his sleep anyways, but dude, painkillers make it America's Funniest Home Videos worthy. Enough about that.<br />
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I'm one of those people that most pregnant women hate because when I'm pregnant, I'm all baby. It looks like I'm all basketball, but no, it's a baby. My doctor told me that there was, and I quote, "No way in heaven you will make it until your due date." Hmmmph. Four days AFTER my due date, Zahara was born leaving me sore and with only half of my blood. At the risk of oversharing, turns out I'm a bleeder so after fainting in the shower and losing any shred of dignity I had left which wasn't much, I found myself in bed, sucking down apple juice, and wanting nothing more than to sleep for the next five years.<br />
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We came home on New Year's Day 2006 with our little tax exemption. If you want to know why we named her Zahara, feel free to read <a href="http://hithertoandhenceforth.blogspot.com/2012/03/on-naming-of-babes.html" target="_blank">this post</a>. <br />
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Obviously, there are a few ways I can remedy this situation--candles, sprays, or plug-ins. Frankly, sprays gag me. Always have, always will. They kind of remind me of when my brother used to spray too much of that "boys only" body spray to cover up the "boys only B.O." that clung mercilessly to him and everything that belonged to him. You know how they all kind of smelled the same? Hmmm, see why I'm adverse to sprays?<br />
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Plug-ins bug me because they use electricity and I don't really want to use my electricity just to make my house smell nice. <br />
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Candles, however, candles are my weak spot. I've always loved candles and my dad, fireman that he was, rarely let me burn candles as a teenager. Hence, I'm making up for it now by burning candles all.over.my.house. Okay, I'm just kidding with that because four kids and a house full of fire hazards don't really mix. That's the number one reason I love Village Candles...I can burn one, just one candle on my kitchen stove and I can smell it everywhere in the house. Yes, even upstairs in the bathroom I can smell my candle, but not in an overpowering way, just in a I-don't-smell-all-the-other-nasty-stuff sort of way. <br />
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Recently, the folks from Village Candle sent me one of their brand spankin' new candles to review and they even gave me the privilege of giving one away to one of my readers....sweet! <br />
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I'll admit, a first I was extremely skeptical about the <a href="http://www.villagecandle.com/scented-candles/741/Sweet-Buttercream-New-Kitchen-Collection">Sweet Buttercream</a> scent. I'm not a big floral person and I prefer the smell of baked good as opposed to florals, but buttercream? I wasn't sure it would be detectable through the house. I was pleasantly surprised. This subtle scent lingered in the house and added a layer of warmth to the dwelling. I loved it. Another plus is the two-wicks in the candle that allow it to burn down evenly. That means no pushing or carving away at the wax. It also means, no leftover wax!<br />
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I know you are all just drooling, either from thinking about Sweet Buttercream or in jealousy of such a lovely candle. So here's how you can enter to win one....<br />
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1.) Visit the <a href="http://www.villagecandle.com/" target="_blank">Village Candle website </a>and then come back here and leave a comment telling me what your favorite scent is. (Mandatory)</div>
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The language enthralled her; its cadence, the rise and fall of the consonants resonating against the vowels and weaving itself into meaning. She listened and learned of tenses and persons and conjugations. Oh, the endless conjugations. Later she studied and watched her eyes constantly taking in the new movements and meaning, her mind assigning words and rhythms, affect and intonation to the language spoken from the hands. </blockquote>
The above is just a small excerpt into how I think about languages. I've always loved writing, language, linguistics and everything involved in them. In high school I was enamored with Tolkien and tried creating my own Elvish-esque language. Later, I would take five years of Spanish in a four year time to better understand the intricacies of the language. When I attended the National Technical Institute for the Deaf (NTID) in 2004, I knew I wanted to be a sign language interpreter. To be completely honest, I was already working as an interpreter, I just really wanted the degree and the letters after my name. I harbored high hopes of going on to get my Master's and perhaps a Ph.D. in linguistics. Words have been a part of my life ever since I can remember and for a fun fact, I didn't speak until I was almost three. (If you ask anyone who knows me in real life, they'll say I've been making it up ever since.)<br />
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After one year, my time at NTID came to a screeching halt. I was pregnant. Not the cutesy, "I'm expecting" pregnancy of a happily married woman, but the "Oh crap, I'm pregnant" of an unmarried college student with higher hopes for herself. To say I was devastated would be an understatement. I know, I know, if you partake of certain activities, pregnancy can happen. I probably should not have been surprised, but I was. I spent the last part of my year at NTID alternating between laying in my bed wishing I would die and leaning over the toilet wishing I would die. Other than that, I don't remember much. <br />
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Fast forward twelve weeks. I got married. My veil and dress were vintage-looking. I wore Reef sandals instead of dress shoes. My ring cost $98. I cried for about an hour on the way to my honeymoon. I don't remember much about that time. We had a reception for friends and family a few weeks later, but that is a story for another time.<br />
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And that's where I'm leaving you...hanging. Come back soon for installment number 2 :-)Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8229064748267358580.post-50929424832710961182012-04-18T09:03:00.000-07:002012-04-18T09:03:03.513-07:00tremble<br />
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Meeting new people scares me. <br />
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Maybe that's not the right sentence. The fear of what people may think when they meet me scares me. </div>
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Yes, that's it.</div>
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Walking into a room or a situation in which I'm not sure if I belong is terrifying. Like, terrifying to the point of I will avoid it at all costs. The fear of being separated from the group of persons that I knew once led me to walk right smack dab through the middle of two individuals having a conversation. They were literally a foot apart from each other. I wasn't trying to be rude; I just freaked out because my group was not near me.</div>
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I'm a recovered spaz, so I've pretty much gotten my crazy-squirrel-can't-figure-out-which-way-to-run instinct out of my system, but my brain still functions that way.</div>
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I love meeting new people, as long as it's a guarantee that they like me. </div>
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You see, I'm pretty quirky. I have an annoyingly dry sense of humor and tend to quote movies like Back to the Future. I can also identify almost any theme song, but I'll refrain from whistling them for you because that might really freak you out.</div>
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The risk that they might not like me can be paralyzing.</div>
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If I had to blame something for my crazy fear it would be the years I spent being bullied in school. Of course, back then, they didn't call it bullying. No, they just said that "boys will be boys." </div>
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So now, I'm learning. Slowly.</div>
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God's taken this fear, this anxiety surrounding other would-be friends and has turned it into an opportunity....an opportunity to trust Him. To know that I am enough in Him. When I walk into a room it isn't about me....it's about the relationships that can be forged.</div>
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So that's me. In a nutshell.</div>
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Pretty scared of big rooms, with people I don't know.</div>
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Yet I force myself to go there. </div>
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To learn how to conquer that fear.</div>
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Because every friend was once a stranger.<br />
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Dear sweet, brave, courageous woman,<br />
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I see you there. You stand with your shoulders hunched just a little bit more than the rest of the ladies at ballet. They talk of husbands and the quirks that drive them crazy while you try to train all your focus on your daughter, spinning in the midst of the slick floor because if you listen too closely, your tender heart might shatter at the reminder of what your daughter doesn't get. You're reminded at every school play, every daddy-daughter function, every father's day that your family doesn't look like you intended it to. <br />
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Oh, yes, you're still a family, but in your six year old heart and in your sixteen year old heart and in your twenty-six year old heart you never imagined it this way; that your road of blessing, this road of motherhood would be one walked alone. <br />
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Put your shoulders back. Hold your head high for you are tenacious and a force with which to be reckoned. Every day you fight off the desire to wallow in your sadness and instead do what has to be done. Sure, the only marvel in your house might be on a pair of little boys' underwear, but you are a superhero. You, the mother who chases away monsters and can't remember the last time she slept in a bed by herself because someone always needs their wonderwoman to chase away the bad dreams.<br />
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You are beautiful. The dark circles and the body that no longer resembles that of your peers are only badges of honor to the life-changing, world-altering work you do every day. I know that sweeping up the can of Pringles and then giving baths to multiple children hardly seems earth-shattering, but upon your foundation of faithfully serving your children, they will learn how to faithfully serve others.<br />
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Mother, you are enough. You are doing well. You are changing lives. Please, please don't give in to the lie that your children are doomed because you are a single mom. Don't. Instead look at all the ways that God gets to fill in the gaps. <br />
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Don't give up.<br />
Don't give in.<br />
Keep going.<br />
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This post is linked up over at <a href="http://motherletters.com/my-mother-letter-link-up-party/">Mother Letters</a>, a collection of letters to mothers from mothers.</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8229064748267358580.post-55318096864418298952012-04-16T01:30:00.000-07:002012-04-16T01:30:03.801-07:00woven redemption<br />
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We’re sitting on couches. <br />
They are the perfect kind of couch for sitting and visiting because they
sag in just the right places. Stuffing
molds to our bodies, engulfing us, urging us to share the truth of our lives
with one another as we sit. She asks the
same question they all ask, “How are you doing,” but I know by the tone of her
voice and the look in her eye that she can handle the real answer. She doesn’t need me to be strong so she doesn’t
have to feel the need to help. She doesn’t
need me to gloss over the scary parts or the parts that could leave on
jaded. She already knows that things don’t
always pan out like we thought and she also knows that <b>we are more than the circumstance</b> in which we find ourselves. She knows that <i>while one decision can ripple through our entire life, that the same
choice does not have to dictate the rest of our lives.</i> <o:p></o:p></div>
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So I answer. </div>
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Truthfully. </div>
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From my heart and some of it’s yucky, but it’s
my reality right now.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Every day is a struggle.
But probably not in the way you think. </div>
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I struggle every day with this person called The Adversary. You see, this guy hates me and I don’t mean
can’t stand to be in the same room as me, no, I’d call that a passionate
dislike. <b>This guy wants nothing more than to see me curse God and die. </b>And he lurks. He waits in the corner until one of the kids
pushes me to the brink of exhaustion and then he starts reminding me that I’m a
bad mom. <o:p></o:p></div>
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It’s lies. </div>
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I know
this, but in the solitude of single parenting, it’s easy to think he’s telling
the truth. Especially when his is the
only voice you can hear.<o:p></o:p></div>
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It’s in those moments where he reminds me that men without
baggage don’t fall in love with women with four kids. I mean picture it, a handsome guy goes home
to mom and dad and says, “Hey, I’ve fallen in love with a wonderful woman, but
there’s a catch. She has four kids.” Really?
Really? Yeah, that doesn’t happen
in real life. <o:p></o:p></div>
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There’s the daily struggle of whether or not it’s worth
cooking dinner even though it will be met with an onslaught of “I don’t like
that” ‘s and “Yuck!”. <o:p></o:p></div>
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So that’s what The Adversary would have me believe, but he
didn’t count on this.<o:p></o:p></div>
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You see, I’m not living real life as far as I’m
concerned. </div>
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No, I’m a girl that God wove
into this amazing story called redemption.
It’s about Jesus and Him coming to rescue His beloved on a
global-all-of-mankind-level, but it’s also this personal story of His
redemption of me; His redemption of Kristina. </div>
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It’s so easy to live like redemption happened once on a cross then
sideswiped your life when you accepted Christ, <b><i>but what if we, I, lived like
redemption is happening right now because truthfully, it is. </i></b><o:p></o:p></div>
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God is weaving His redemption all through your story and mine. Whether it be through keeping you from the
bad or protecting you in the midst of the trials of life His redemption rings
true.<o:p></o:p></div>
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How has redemption shown up in your life lately?<o:p></o:p></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8229064748267358580.post-87465514818841526362012-04-15T01:30:00.000-07:002012-04-15T01:30:02.143-07:00carved<br />
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His heart beats with redemption’s pulse. </div>
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It’s not about an individual’s happiness or a
single man’s pursuit of a woman. Instead
it’s about the rescue of an entire culture—a group of people so distant and so
far past saving that only God Himself could look down and have any hope of
rescue. <o:p></o:p></div>
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They are a pitiful lot, this group of refugees He’s chosen. They have no true home and their wounds are
self-inflicted reminders of the choices they’ve made, the places they’ve been,
the home they no longer have. <i><o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>Adultress.<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>Whore.<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>Liar<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>Fornicator.<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>Cheater.<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>Unfaithful.<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>Unclean.<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>Greedy<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>Gluttonous<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>Lust<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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<i>Shame<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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The list of words tattooed across their flesh continues on
and on, their sins called out against pale flesh for all to read. In the midst of their hopeless mire, He hand
picks them time after time, day after day. </div>
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The one with the tattered dress, tattoos of whoredom lining her arms;
eyes dull with blackness. He reaches out
and touches her scars, then washes them.
Her tattoos, those she was told would never go away begin to disappear
from her skin. The indelible ink runs
and fades away to a puddle at her feet and she fingers her new skin—clear, new,
brand new. It’s the exact thing they
told her would never happen. </div>
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A Rescuer
has come. New words appear on her arms,
but they are words her eyes have never read, her brain never processed.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<i>Beautiful.</i> </div>
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“What is the meaning of this word?” she asks.<o:p></o:p></div>
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He explains the intricacies that enumerate beauty. The sparrow perched on a branch, a new baby’s
cry, the sun peeking over the horizon. <o:p></o:p></div>
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“And this word, <i>Beloved.”</i>
she points at another spot on her arm.
He traces the outline and begins to tell her of the ways she has been
carved into the wall of His heart, so even once it stopped beating He would
still carry her name there.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Lastly, her eyes flutter to her wrist where one word
shimmers brighter than the others, begging to be noticed as if announcing its
eminence…<i>Mine.</i><o:p></o:p></div>
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She looks into His eyes with knowing and He smiles back.<o:p></o:p></div>
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His. <o:p></o:p></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com